ifonlyiwassure

Alright ladies and gents, its been a while...

Decided I would do a list of things to do before I die:

1. Travel to Ireland
2. Net over 1 million dollars in a year
3. Own four rottweilers
4. Have a hit rap single
5. Be a roadie for a semifamous band
6. Act on stage
7. Live in a country where I dont know the language for 6 months
8. Disprove laws of motion
9. Direct an independent film
10. Buy a maseratti
11. Give maseratti away to high school nerds (Entourage moment)
12. Fall in love in the typical romantic comedy style.
13. Do something different every weekend for a year.
14. Find myself
15. Time Travel
16. Get a 4.0 one semester

That's all for now. I need more friends on this thing.

Well we hung out for three hours tonight, and as happy as that made me, Im so upset now.
I just start to get close to her, and now im leaving.
Im pretty sure im meant to be alone, or at least it seems that way for right now.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Don't worry kiddo, everything will work out.

So for the longest time, I've denied it in some feeble attempt to be "scene." I have no choice but to admit it now...I like Dashboard. There I said it and i won't take it back. Nope, not at all. :)

I wish I got a lollapalooza pass for my bday...and then decided that I didn't feel like going. That would be the life.

I keep thinking about the same girl over and over and over and over...it's both a good and a bad thing, but we shall see.

Alrighty, well heres the beginning of the chroncling of the end of my summer break. So I got another job; now I will be one of those people that cal lyou and ask if you will do surveys over the phone...yay for telemarketing. I will work 6 days a week at that place from 10-4, and then on my free day, most likely saturday I will be working at Odyssey Fun World. So thats work seven...out of seven...days a week. Also, my mom's surgery was successful, no more Haglan's deformity, but she really is rendered unable to use that foot at all. OH ON A VERY VERY HAPPY SIDENOTE SHE DOES NOT HAVE CANCER!!!! The thing they saw was not a tumor. So definitely happy for that.
Yesterday was the day she was operated on, and then my aunt hung around all day as well as my cousin, she spent the night. My aunt is completely useless, and I really was on my last nerve between her and my dad barking orders at me. This whole thing aint gonna work if they dont work with me a little bit. For instance, I just walk in the door after going to pick up something for dinner, and my dad immediately says, "Did you call your cousin?," and my aunt says "Did you put that ice pack in the freezer?" (Note: The ice pack was laying right next to her.) I felt like saying No im sorry, I was busy driving around aimlessly. Its like WTF?!?! But anyway, the doctor said it was a little more complicated than he thought so now she might be out for 6 weeks completely, which meeans, that first weekend back to school is gonna be dangerous.

Things could be worse though, I could have no job, my mom could have cancer, and I could not be going back to UIC so all in all id say im pretty damn lucky, but ya know, the grass is always less brown on the other side. I have finally accomplished something I have wanted to do for a while, I actually read Candide by Voltaire. Really good book, one thing I accrued from reading it is that no one is really happy while being idle, so hopefulyl with how busy I will be I will experience true bliss. Well this is long, and I have to run. L8R.

Well...its been quite a bit since I updated, and as of yet I ahve no significant posts. Well, pledging has been an experience...one that I will never forget...especially going through it with the people I went through it with. Those three guys are truly brothers of mine. Now we stand at the edge of everything teetering between two possibilites...successful completion, or failing and having this all go to waste. And then today happens...Chris and Kordi got the results of their judicial hearing, Kordi is staying and Chris is being forced to move out to Commons South. What the fuck?! They are going to make the kid move out with 20 days of class left. Can you say retarded? Housing is so stupid. But like, this shows that there really are no guarantees...never take for granted having someone you care about being there on hand. I always used to think of that as something pertaining to death, but it really can be anything that removes that person from your daily interaction. Of course even him moving does not mean that he is going to be isolated from us. Take the time that you have with the people you care about to tell them how much they mean to you...how much you care about them. Thats all for now.

Well all this is my first time on here. Cant wait for pledging, check back here for more details.